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I haven't really updated this for a while... There's not much that is new really... Hm... Well, Chris and I have been dating for a little over two months now. It's been amazing, I've really never been this happy. He is everything that I could ask for and more. I wish I would have met him a long time ago. The end of this week I start Spring Break. I am going to Tennessee with Chris and his family from the 10th until the 13th, I am so excited. Chris treats me so amazing! I spend every minute that I can with him and I love it. I really don't want this to end, ever. Hmm... what else? Well, back in February my friend Andrew passed away. He was in a drunk driving accident, and he was the driver. His friend Travis was in the car with him but he walked away, Andrew didn't have that luxury. It's really hard dealing with it lately... Especially now that it's getting warmer and his birthday is this month. Andrew and I use to talk a lot in the summer and we had a lot of memories then, so now that it's getting warmer it just reminds me of all the nights that we'd talk on the phone for hours and I'd walk around outside. I don't know, everyone says that I should try to let it go, forget about it, and be happy. But that's really hard for me because he really was a big part of my life. Some days are harder than others, but I guess I'm coping well. Also, lately I've realized that not many people are really who they say they are... A lot of people are really two faced and untrustworthy. I have my reasons for believing this and there's really no changing my mind... I recently have come to realize that there aren't many people that are going to stick by your side no matter what. So, I know that there are two people that are going to be in my life for a long time. My best friend Cary and my boyfriend Chris. I honestly can't see myself being friends with anyone else in my life 10 years from now but them. I'm tired of making two faced friends and then getting stabbed in the back, it's really messed up. But I guess it's something that you just have to deal with and learn from it. On the other hand... I am going to be taking drivers training soon. I have been putting it off because I am really paranoid and afraid to drive. But now that I am dating Chris, being able to drive seems really important so that I can see him more. Also, I am saving up for some new clothes, a car, contacts, and a lot of shows in the summer. So I am going to be broke for a while. Other than all of that, my life is going really well and I'm excited to see what in store for the near future. I am going to try to update this a lot more, so keep reading! :D Current Location: art tech 2
Current Mood:  content
Current Music: The Spill Canvas
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So, I never can remember to update this thing... I haven't been on here in so long. My last post was in September and I was dating the biggest fucking loser in the world, hahaha. But now... things are a lot different now. I fucked up school again and now I am grounded. I got my phone taken away, and I'm not allowed on the internet. But I occassionally sneak on from time to time. I now have a new boyfriend... his name is Chris. After all the pointless relationships that I've been in, I am finally happy. The only thing that makes it hard for us is distance and the fact that I'm grounded. I got my phone taken away so I have to borrow my mom's in order for me to call him. But she usually lets me slide on the weekends and let's him come over. We've only been dating for a short amount of time, but I know that this is going to last. He makes me happier than I've ever been in my entire life. He treats me amazing and we have almost everything in common. I know that he won't give up on me like everyone else did and that makes me feel amazing. We've both have had some really shitty exs but with that, we both know how to make eachother happy. Out of all the relationships that I've been in, I've never been this happy. For the first time in my life, I can honestly say that I am in love. I am currently focusing on my grades and getting my life back on track. I am really happy for once about everything that's going on in my entire life. Except for one thing... I am really sick of losing friends. I hate that there's certain people that you have to be best friends with or you don't mean anything to them. I really miss all of my old friends and knowing that I had people there for me. But, I guess it happens to the best of us. Honestly, I can only see like two people that I'm friends with now being in my future. Cary and Chris. Really, that's it. Cary is my bestfriend and i love Chris so much, I plan on being with him forever. So, I'm just going to live my life for me, and only me.
Current Location: art tech 2
Current Music: Despised Icon- Dead King
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I haven't truly updated this in a while and I apologize for that. There's really nothing all that new... But I will fill you in as much as possible? :)
Hmmm... I just came back from my dad's house. He lives about an hour away on the country side. I absolutely love it there. You can go there and it's so relaxing... You just forget about everything else and for a minute, everything is perfect. I really miss it there. At the beginning of summer I was thinking about moving there. But then, I met someone and I decided that I didn't want to move there anymore because I would be two hours away from him. That was really a stupid move on my part... But whatever.
There was a part of the summer where I was really happy. I was the happiest I have ever been, because I met someone. Although, that didn't last long... He turned out to be like all of the rest of the guys. I've only really told a few people what really happened... But to be honesty, it's not really that big of a deal. We hung out once, he kissed me, and then the next day he pretty much told me he wants nothing to do with me, and I haven't talked to him since. But you know... Sometimes, you have to lose something before you realize what it really meant to you. And to be honest, after he dropped me like that... It only hurt for a few days. That's how I know that it wasn't meant to be in the first place and all of those strong feelings that I thought were real... Weren't real. So, now I have moved on and I am over him. Maybe not fully... Because I can't just get over someone that told me they loved me and kissed me and all that in just a week or two. But I will be fine, because I AM moving on to someone better. To be honest, he wasn't really my type anyways, so I don't think it would have worked out in the first place.
Other than that... there is really nothing new? I am booking this show called BROS WITH BEARDS FEST? It's going to be awesome. Uhm... I am going to Ryan's show/party Saturday and then on Sunday I am going to Summerfest Day2. Seriously, other than that there is nothing new... I will try to update this more, I promise.
 Current Location: my rooom
Current Mood:  curious
Current Music: Taking Back Sunday- You're So Last Summer (ahah)
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So, I haven't had my keyboard to my computer for the past two days due to my fantastic efforts in science... bahaha, don't ask:p Also I have like $1.00 left on my phone so I'm not going to be able to update this for a while, depending on when I have acess to my keyboard. I highly doubt that there is many people that read this anyways? Haha. So lately, I have been really down for some reason. I'm not really even sure why... I just have been. I feel like its almost impossible for me to be happy nowadays. Although a few things here and there over the past two days or so have helped? For example, the other day I won two free tickets to Dirtfest:D I have won tickets over the radio like 8 times.... hahah, its so crazy:p Also, yesterday I thought up some ideas on ordering merch for my promoting company, which I am really excited for. Also! Today I got a call from these people and they are going to pay me to go to a show next friday. Hahaha, that is so awesome! Yeah, I will have to do a bit of work but that is okay. I mean, I am getting PAID to do my favorite thing, GO TO A SHOW! Haha:) Other than that, there is really nothing new at all. Besides me being all lonely wishing I had someone to make me smile, that's all. Well, I'm out. Bye:] Current Location: deee carrr
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: JamisonParker- Alcohol and Bandages
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Woah! It's been like a year since I have posted anything, haha. Sorry guys! I've just been really busy and not feeling like typing a novel like I am about to type. Haha. So, on Friday I attended Warped Tour. AH! IT WAS SO DAMN HOT. But all around, it was by far amazing. Although, I almost passed out during FTSK (forever the sickest kids)... I think it was a combination of heat, not eating all day, and being so close to people to the point where you couldn't breathe. So after like 2 songs I had to get out of there:/ I was so sad because they were one of the few bands that I wanted to see. Also, I missed Mayday Parade's set. I accidentally put it in my phone that they were playing two hours later than they really were playing:/ But I suppose it's okay because I've already seen them. I caught their acoustic set though! WHICH, LET ME TELL YOU!!! WAS SO AMAZING<3 Also, I caught some of FTSK's acoustic set, it was amazing as well. Another band that I missed was A Day To Remember:/ They were definitely one of the bands that I was looking forward to seeing too. But I was sitting on the ground trying not to die after my FTSK experience. Hahaha. My favorite part of the day had to of been the last band that we saw, We The Kings. They are so amazing live. And best of all, I got to watch them with my best friend Patrick:) I can't wait until they come back to Michigan. OH! I scored myself an awesome shirt too, it says "STAY EDGE XXX" in silver foil<3 I love it. My Warped Tour experience was quite eventful, I can't wait until next year:]
The rest of the weekend I just sat around. I couldn't really move because my sunburn hurt too bad, but it's okay. WELL WORTH IT. Also, I felt really sick after almost dieing during FTSK. I think I may have slight sun poisoning? Haha:O
So today, was a weird day... I'm not going to go into detail as of why it was so weird... but it just was? I don't know... I just really want to be in a relationship. Not one of those 2 week ones though... I want a real relationship with someone that will STAY. At least stick around for a while? I want to be happy again, more than anything. I want to meet someone that I can be myself around, someone that loves me for me, someone that is as deep as I am, someone really cute and sweet. I suppose that I have high hopes:/ I am just sick of searching for someone to make me happy. Some have told me to stop searching and just wait for them to find me... But I'm not sure that I want to do that? I am afraid that if I stop searching, that I will never be found. If that makes any sense... I don't know I just wish there was a boy out there reading this that can be my perfect someone. I just wish it was possible:/ I'm sick of hoping and dreaming of the perfect guy to the point where it seems like I'm grasping at something that I'll never have.
 Current Location: my rooom
Current Mood:  pessimistic
Current Music: Dave Melillo- Wait For It
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